Funny how a little question, can be hard to explain. I been searching for myself. Do to recent events in my life, I have been left to question who I am, and what I represent. Most of you know of my Code of Honor, if not see previous blog with it. I been trying to justify that it is me. yet I find it leaves a feeling of being Lost in a fog. I feel that I am a man out of time, and place. I have been told many times in this young life, that I am too good to be true, that I am just a scammer, that I can't be real. It has left me questioning myself, looking into my past, the mistakes, the triumphs, and the mockeries that have befallen me. Yet, I have found no real answers. Is it wrong of me, to have a code I live by? It's this code that makes me who I am, this is the best way I have to explain it's meaning to me. I would gladly put my life on the line, for the love of the right woman. yet I been laugh at, called werid, and many other things. Just like in my favorite movie.....Is she worth it??? worth dying for. I believe that all women can be worth it, as long as they are respected and cherished, and they respect you in return. yet I am left to wonder is it the right course, cause all I have gotten back is pain and sorrow, with a dash of ridicule. I am a knight, I believe in chivary, and I will contiue to fight for what I believe. It's just taking me awhile to get my head back on straight.
Well again the craziness of life gets in the way. My group fell apart before it begun. I still continue in my Magikal studies, but once again alone. Spent the summer with family and friends, so haven't been online long enough to post much. Then my computer needs a restart, so got it wiped and reinstalled my stuff. I been working quite alot at my job. It's a blast, but now the slow season is coming so who knows. Especially after the no-smoking ban goes into effect. I found a new hobbie..as a Paranormal Investigator. I and a few friends are starting a group. I will post more when the is more to post about that.
The more crazy your life is, the more twisted it becomes. So I take each day one at a time; what will happen next who knows. What the hell...for once I'm going enjoy the ride. To all my friends here. I hope life has been good to you, and keeps staying that way. I been to the edge of sanity, and not lost in my own mind. A wise man once said. " He who stands on the edge of a cliff. Knows the wisest choice is to take one step back." "I say screw you...I got a parachute...meet ya at the bottom!!!"
May the Goddess protect you and the ones you love.
I first want to all to know, and for those who have read it. My Code, is my life. Recently I had to defend myself, not only to friends but also to family. Needless to say I been really focusing on that. Yes it has meant me not being online much, and even some major traveling in the process. Yet through it all, I never change a thing. I plan to get myself back on track, both spiritually, and friendship wise with all my friends here. Just please understand it will take me sometime. I need to recleanse all my negativity, and move on so to speak.
On a lighter note I and a few friends are starting a paranormal group. I will keep you all up to date. We plan to start locally in our area, Due to it's rich history!
May the goddess protect you and the ones you love.
Being former Navy, I want to take a moment...to remember those who gave all. To the families left behind. I want you to know that your sacrifice, in losing the ones you love. That I personally want you to know that you have my thanks, and my respect. For allowing your loves to do the job they did, and protecting our freedom, even with the price they paid. I want you to know that I for one will never forget them. I might not know their names, or personally, but I do understand they did what was nessecery. I salute you, fallen comrades, and I salute the families left behind.
First want to say I'm sorry to all my friends. What can I say life has been hectic lately. I always on the go. I have a lot on my plate so to speak. I will not bore you all with the details....lol. I just want you all to know that I fine.
In other news, One of my favorite stores is closing. The owner has become one of my better firends. She and I along with another are hoping to start a small coven together. So we can grow, Learn and teach one another along the way. I am very excited about the possiblity of this coven, and saddened at the fact that she's closing her store.
I have also update my page. Change my user portrait!!!! (hope it changes to it soon) I update some things in my profile, and even posted this blog!!!!
May the Goddess protect you and the ones you love!!!!
